This picture was on my phone when I woke up the other day.
I feel like I’m in the middle of everything right now. These are the ditches that are less old. That night, though, my husband had to wake up with the baby. He took this picture of my daughter and me with the baby after we changed clothes, fed the baby, and put the baby down.
When I haven’t “posed” for a picture of myself, I usually don’t share it. And I usually get very angry at the person who took it. But things are different this time. This picture was one of a kind.
Because things have been really hard for a few weeks now. It’s easy to forget how demanding a baby is. How mentally, socially, and physically tired you get. Things are already hard for you before you have two more kids. Each and every time.
I hug babies, change diapers, wipe tears, clean up spills, do laundry, wash dishes, and eat a lot of snacks during the day.
Most of the time, I don’t wash my hair. Because I haven’t slept enough, my eyes are puffy and have bags under them. It’s likely that food or spit got on my clothes. I always wear my hair in a mom bun. All of my makeup is gone.
And this picture shows everything. Being a parent is one of the hardest jobs in the world, even though it’s not glamorous.
I’d like to think about this time in my life. It’s easy to forget that you’ll miss something when you’re in the middle of things, so I made this picture to remember you.
I won’t mind the busy evenings as much as I love holding and cuddling my babies to sleep. As their little fingers wrap around mine, I can feel their hearts breathing.
The fact that I can calm my kids down with a hug and a kiss on the forehead will worry me more than the crying fits.
It will hurt me more to clean up their messes with soap and water than it is to clean up milk spills.
I will not feel any pain in my neck or back when I share a bed with my kids, and I will not miss it. I won’t miss seeing their looks when I wake up in the morning, though. We’ll miss our morning hugs.
I’d like to think about this time in my life.
I don’t want to forget this part of being a parent, even if it’s hard and upsetting.
Remember to tell your partner or someone close to you. Tell them again that they need to take these pictures of you.
“Enjoy these pictures.”
